So Cold

thou the skies are dark,
i stood on the cold dungeon alone
waiting for the ice dungeon to melt
waiting for the guard of the dungeon
to release me from this cold
the dragon sent his fire to heat the dungeon
but its as if the ice dungeon could never melt
lou i waited here feeling lonely and cold
how i missed the flowers in spring
how i missed the fresh air with the smell of grass
waiting for a prince to open the dungeon and lead me the way

i sat down the dungeon window
looking outside it was forever night
at the atlantic there is never spring or summer
always so cold covered by the gloomy skies
i have not been running on the green fields
i have not been touching the graceful butterflies hopping on the flowers
i long for the natural air where i origin from
the place has been destroyed by a cruel king

locking the princess in the cold dungeon
feeling sick and lonely
when will the dragon's fire melt the cold dungeon?
please as i long to escape from the trap
the aching cold is piercing my heart
i covered myself with tiger skin but yet the cold still blazers me
warm food just keep the heat temporary
the love in me has kept me alive
coz i could see the future
but the years prove that the ice dungeon is so cold
that it would not be easily melted

my prince, where are you?
aren't you gonna save me anymore?
the guarding dragon is getting weaker under the ice element
the fire of the dragon may not warm me any longer
would i be the ice statue which stands beautifully in the dungeon?
please take me away before the ice dungeon bleeds me to death
take me away before the piercing kills my beating heart

Deseneez Depez

Eating disorder or just living to eat?

today is a friday... had a nice lunch just now and the mood is swinging well... so since i still have extra lunch time i decided to blog... blog blog...

AkiraKaze she reminds me of the eating habit that i used to have that is when ever i saw food my eyes sparkled as if i got a 10 carat of diamonds.. so i think ur not as bad as me since u prefer to chew on nestum... remember the times when we were in high school... you motivated me a lot back then... i used to like skip most of my homework.. but sitting beside you have really like make me paiseh la... then u were always so tedious in your work... and most of the time i talk to you while you were writting your english essay.. and when the teacher asked us to hand in.. opps... i think i talked too much and distracted ur attention and you would be rushing to finish it.. sorry bout that :P

binging is a habit where one starts to eat and not feeling full at all... most students binge actually just depends how serious is the case... so if u start binging due to stress better consider if its worth to binge... if u binge due to disatisfaction on certain things.. pls consider this: is it worth putting on weight and eating like a mad cow and after binging it will not change anything?

sad to say even if u binge down the whole fridge... nth is gonna change and who is gonna suffer ler?? u of course... if u binge on stress... well consider this.. instead of worrying how well you will be scoring in ur finals better start chewing the books & notes now...

if you start worrying bout ur financial status.. stop binging u will spend more since u eat more than u should nth's left for the next day... if ur jobless go look for a job and not eat.. no work how to eat??if you are studying... stop binging too better go work on ur projects, assingments and prepare for ur finals.. since u can't practise ur eating skills in the exam hall sorry bout tat.. wat's the point binging when u hv to exercise to throw out the extra "things" u had? then better not throw in the first place...further more like i said u cannot practise ur binging skills anywhere...

AkiraKaze hope you agree with me.. yes this was the discussion we had on binge eating.. i find many students especially will binge...

quote: life is a strange path where sometimes nothing makes sense at all but come to think about it we should see our reflection before we whine on others misdoing as god made imperfect humans for them to learn

so let's take up life lessons!!

Bipolar??Depression??Who fits in??

In modern days, assingments & projects & etc are killing us when we are student, work load are burdening us when we are not student but sounds like a life of a student is less enjoyable and yes i agree with that now tat i am working. Piggy was asking me bout this few weeks back the bipolar some sort of depression thingy.. so i went and i saw this.. i think you->piggy kinda fit in the category though.... i found this symptoms from the internet though.

Signs and symptoms of depression (or a depressive episode) include:
1. Lasting sad, anxious, or empty mood -> well seems like you check this

2. Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism -> sometimes always thinking that things won't work then how to try if u oredi think it wun work!! start thinking tat u can fly with a blue towel tied behind together with an exposed red underwear

3. Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness -> oh no u check this as well always thinking u can't do anything more... so from now on start cleaning the whole cyberia building k

4. Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed -> you are still gaming and watching lots of dramas so you are okie keep up the dramaing work

5. Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or of being "slowed down" -> seems like you always tired.. check too! so dun sleep too much work! work! work!

6. Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions -> wow !!! all checked!! can u believe that?? so start making decisions from now on. start by deciding where we should go play from now onwards

7. Restlessness or irritability -> half checked again meaning sometimes only for half colored... be patient even when ppl is trying to deafen ur ears with terrible music/sound opps... meaning music which u do not appreciate

8. Sleeping too much, or can't sleep -> correct totally agree! you slept more than 9 hours a day remember?and sometimes more than 10 hours...from now on just take a 5 will do... lol killing u faster right?

9. Change in appetite and/or unintended weight loss or gain -> totally checked too... you said your spare tire got much larger than usual so its "unintended weight gain" too bad the "unintended" was not for loss

10. Chronic pain or other persistent bodily symptoms that are not caused by physical illness or injury -> check again!!! you always saying that you are aching here and there

11. Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts -> nah... dun think so

the article says -> A depressive episode is diagnosed if five or more of these symptoms last most of the day, nearly every day, for a period of 2 weeks or longer. so kawan.. seems like you fit in 9/11 and tat would be 81.81% tat's too near...

alrite... this is what i think ... you should do something about it... hahha so you seem to fit in the bipolar thingy after all... see told you not to talk too much bout it... now its in u!!!so piggy tat's all i can do for u -> to dig the symtoms and analyse how far you fit in... till then piggy maybe u should consider not sleeping too much later u really become a pig!!

Meeting with the parents~!!

Meeting the parents

What is the big deal of meeting the girl's or the boy's parents? Normally when the guy goes to the girl's home what will happen? or when the girl goes to the guy's home what will happen?

The old fashion way once works this way.... when the man steps into the door step of the maiden's home, the maiden is not allowed to welcome the guy opps man they call him. Instead a maid would open the door leading the man to the stern looking father and the mother would be sitting next to him... before he is questioned on anything, he would be served tea..-> according to the chinese old fashion... opps... old traditional ways... then he would be questioned on his background and etc.. etc... etc(nie nak tengok bf anak perempuan ker nak tilik nasib ler?) then the "stern" looking old man will decide whether the daughter should come out to meet him again or not... if can meet then good news!! else too bad looks like he failed the interview... ps/ this is only one of the versions i heard may be other versions

girls meeting the parents

normally in the old fashion way, the girl only gets to meet them when the guy brings her home or if they are arrange for marriage...the parents will come to her home and watch how she served tea and other delicacies... (nie nak tengok menantu ker orang gaji nie).. then if the guy's parents like her they will say the delicacies she served is nice... else bye bye lor... hahhaha...

then the modern ways ler??
1. they meet the parents when they wan to show the person they are "on" with to their most important people in lives

2. the girl gets pregnant -> no choice de.. hv to ask mummy and daddy wat to do

3. then of course less formal Q&A... coz parents basically just wan to know more about the person their kids are on with

4. just a normal dinner at home or some sort of function -> definately nothing to be afraid of.. just eat and chew

tat's the modern way nothing complicated at all so in short nothing to be afraid but its normal to feel a little nervous though but do not over react...

Experience at Genki

whoa!!! this is a thursday morning... slept till 6.30 this morning... thx mom.. hehe... had a hearty dinner at Genki sushi last nite with oktuck... though the bill was a little costly but i felt it was all worthy... as

1. i got to had a long chat
2. the food was good
3. i got to realise that my communication skills is falling deep into the steep?

yes... no movies on a wednesday night... but the talk between us i felt it was good... get to at least find out tat i am starting to yi lun mou chi... great.. no wonder the people around me started to blink when i talk... oppss... looks like my way of conveying a message is not too right after all... need to talk more i guess... i wan to watch pirates of the carribean.... pls pls... would like to watch it this saturday night... but sigh sigh sigh.... i am going to the saloon... hope i can finish fast.. and maybe i will hv some time to catch up the movie... or maybe sun also can la... after all the price still same wut... or better still watch it next wed... cheaper... hahahha...

hope i stop making ppl kek sim by misconveying my messages though... hahha maybe i should blog more to learn to convey messages better... i wan to get a digital camera... i wan i wan.. but which is good?? most said nikon... and panasonic... i saw sony cybershot.. but it seems tat sony digital got some problems ... hmm... hmm... think think think... hope i can get one camera later on... then i can start posting pictures too... wow so many things to buy... and i am not printing money... wish i can hv a wish tat whenever i needed money all i need to do is tuck my hands into my pocket and get the exact amount of money... then i wun be broke forever.. wuhhahahahhah... better than wishing for a million dollars... not too greedy wut... just wish for the amount exact amount tat i need.... grin grin... grin... wuahhahha

and once again thx oktuck...

quote::sometimes things may not be in our favour but we have to consider of others preference as well. being selfish is not the solution but learning to solve and tolerate is the best solution

the stars are bright
the moon is graceful between the clouds
the table is large with stools neatly arrange around
there isn't any rosemary wine
there isn't any almost done steak
the taste of pure water is just as pure
the broken glass are still shattered there
the drop of tears had dried up over the years
the droppings are still graceful on the hall
the dark lady is nowhere to be seen
has she gone with the tears too?
the hallway reminds on the nostalgic night
where everyone was gracefully floating on the marble floor
the scent of roses filled the whole home
the laughter surround around guests
now the time has changed everything but not history
the time has changed and bring in modern machines
but the memories still remains
a lot can be changed but permanent marks may last till the last breathe

watched stay alive & recycle last week...the movie was not wat i expected... maybe i expected too much from the advertisements i saw... so i was a little dissapointed in them though... i wan to watch superman... who is gonna bring me??? the whole week was basically hectic... felt so tired the whole week... not sure why i am so tired though... maybe i watched too many movies...:-p my colleague invited me to watch pirates of the caribbean this friday... but i would be teaching this friday so most probably i may not be able to make it.... i wan to watch it badly... today my mood swing is a bit weird... i dun really felt like doing anything in the office despite i have plenty of work to settle in office.. how much i hate mondays... i have to admit this... yuna... felt really sorry for not being able to talk to you this morning though... I have to check on all the servers and make sure they are ups and the ssh is lagging things down... with other programs on as well.. really hope the best for you and hopefully will meet you up for lunch or something when everything's settled down for you... till then do take care of yourself and really thanks for hearing me talking crap this 2 years.... yeap... its been 2 years... not to forget the late nites when you had the chance to sleep but you sacrifice them for me to listen to me whinning and crying over... and it was a tremendous "picnic" we always had together not to forget those taiwanese dramas.... all the best to you yuna...

chak~! Stay Alive.... i wan i wan.... i play games too but does that means i hv to stop playing?
wuhahha.... look at those scary eyes

Stay Alive .... so moral of the story is ???

don't play games??

coz it will take your life too once your character in the game dies?? who watched this already?? is it as scary as it looks?? and there is another movie which i wan to watch too re-cycle... Lee Sin Jie.. its like it's already her trade mark that she acts as a girl who could see extraordinary phenomena....

Run... run..... run... running from who??

Actually i also not sure... have yet to watch...

can i watch the movie tomolo?? plzzzz...

What movie?? hehehe... some horror movie

where you will die when your character in the game dies too.....

starting to get the tittle of the movie?